Saving my friend’s life left me with
permanent brain damage that literally made me crazy. For the rest of my
life, I am going to feel like I’m losing my mind at any given moment. It’s
why the doctors never expected me to live a normal life, recover from my
injuries. My mental illness is what makes me an incredibly beautiful,
textured, bad ass human being; and, it’s what connects me to my power! It
has kicked my ass every step of the way, left me without any self-esteem, took
away my self-worth and it’s why I wound up homeless; but, I say Something Wonderful is Going to Happen,
to summon positive energy to calm the crazy boiling inside of me, center me and
change my perception of my life falling apart around me into a beautiful landscape
that I can navigate. I found my freedom in the madness and the
sadness. I claimed my power. This is my life because I saved a
life. I can’t change it. I can only accept it and surround myself with
positive energy. When people took my hope away, I pushed them away.
When people doubted me, I let them go.
My mental illness, my depression and
seemingly never-ending sadness, is what makes me an incredibly beautiful,
textured, bad ass human being; and, it’s what connects me to my power! If
you’re doubting yourself. If you’re letting the depression win, please
let me inspire you. You don’t have to allow it anymore! You have
the power to change your life. Something wonderful is going to happen!