Hell yes! Everybody deserves forgiveness! When my friend sued me
after I almost died saving her life I had no intention of ever forgiving
her. Saving her life left me with permanent brain damage that the doctors
didn’t believe I’d ever recover from. When I awoke from the week-long
coma they let me know that for the rest of my life I’m going to feel like I’m
losing my mind at any given moment. I was a nineteen-year-old zombie,
trapped inside myself without my voice. I couldn’t process or articulate
my feelings or needs, yet I had to find clarity in the internal chaos of my
mental illnesses. I couldn’t articulate it, but all I knew was that I was
going to have a happy ending! I wasn’t going to let the doctors
take that away from me,
so I say something wonderful is going to happen to push me forward along my
and conjuring that positive energy connected me with my power and my resilience
to fight and the courage to give myself the permission to heal.
I’ve been lost. I’ve been helpless. I’ve felt
hopelessness. I’ve been dead. I’ve been overwhelmed by shame and
almost let it destroy me, but everything in life that has happened to me has
brought me to this level of awareness and that is my something wonderful.
The only reason I ever had to forgive my friend was to honor my goodness.
It’s the only reason anyone ever needs to forgive someone else. When I
forgave her I learned the lesson, changed my energy, freed myself from the
negativity and changed my life. By honoring my goodness, I honor her
goodness and break the cycle of negativity. Forgiveness is closure
for me, it’s an agreement with myself that I’m ready to move forward along my
journey to new adventures!
Sitting with negativity? Can’t forgive? Find your
power! Honor your goodness! Read Kenyon Oster’s inspiring memoir
and free yourself!